July 9, 2007

First Day

It's here. My first day alone with my nest (as Ang called it) of kids. Husband's vacation is over & he went back to work today...an hour & a half ago to be exact. I'm really envying Inkling & Henry David's friend who's off on a year's paternity leave. A full year?! Paid?! Maybe we should move to Canada...

I always feel a little abandoned when I'm first left alone with my babies. When QM left after BabyGirl was born I was panicked...why was she leaving us alone with this baby? We didn't know what we were doing. We were just playing at being parents. It took about a week for me to stop flipping out everytime Husband left for work. You'd think it would get easier with each baby, but it really hasn't. Guess it's time to pull up my big girl pants & get over it as Farm Fairy would say.

Bitsy had a tough night last night. She & I slept in BabyGirl's bed since she was at Uncle Gick's & Husband's been sniffly for the past few days. He needed sleep & I didn't want to listen to him blow his nose all night. Bitsy was gassy & fussy most of the night. She's wake up & want to eat, but then she'd cry & scream because she needed to burp. The gas drops would work for a while, but then she'd need to poop & that would cause another belly ache. I'm not sure if it was something I ate that's giving her trouble, or if it was just a bad night. She's napped most of today & is currently riding in her swing after eating, burping, and pooping. She really looks too tiny to be in that swing...have I mentioned how cute our baby is?

BabyGirl & #1 Son loved their sleep over. They swam, slept in the camper, ate Micky Mouse pancakes, swam some more, and came home bearing presents from Uncle Gick & Unkie Di. BabyGirl has a feathered tiara & magic wand & #1 Son has a note book that reads stories to him. They were happy as clams...until about an hour ago.

BabyGirl & I are having issues. She's been very angry lately. I know the new baby is a big adjustment, but BabyGirl doesn't seem to understand that the same rules apply now that applied pre-Bitsy. I haven't spent much time with the kids the past two weeks & that's been tough on them. They've spent the vast majority of their time outside with their dad. That's been good for them & me, but it's also left them to their own devices quite a bit. Now we're having to readjust...and it isn't particularly pleasant. Hopefully we can work in some one on one time this week while Bitsy naps. Until then, I guess I'll just have to keep locking horns with my oldest so she realizes I still won't back down. I may be weaker than I was but I'm still the boss.

We have a busy week this week. Tomorrow Bitsy has a WIC appointment & her first doctor's appointment in town 20 minutes away. Wednesday I have to see my OB 45 minutes away. Thursday BabyGirl has to see the ENT an hour and 20 minutes away. UGH. And the fair is going on this week so Husband wants to take the kids to see the animals tomorrow (while I'm at WIC with Bitsy?). Here's hoping it all goes well.

3 comments:

Nan said...

Just take it easy. Don't pick up anything too heavy, don't go up too many steps, don't try to prove you're back to your old self when you're still recuperating. You need six weeks at least, before you go wrasselin' any wild animals or the like!

Lauren said...

I should have read this before writing my complaint-infested post. Sheesh. I have no reason to complain.

I wonder if there's a way to "manipulate" oldest into doing what you want and need her to do to help out so she thinks it was her idea to begin with?

Praying for you a you adjust!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Oh sweety I feel for you so much..And right now I'd give anything to be where you are right now instead of where I am. I love you and know that you will find the right words/tone/actions to deal with BabyGirl. Maybe daddy when he's home can oversee Bitsy and the little ones while you go to another part of the house/yard for one on one time Big Kid time.

Hugs to you