Coming to a Realization

According to the ticker on my side bar, Husband and I have been married for 14 years, 5 months, 2 weeks, and 4 days today.  For the vast majority of it we've seen each other for hours & hours & hours every day.  Initially we worked the same shift at the same factory.  We rode to & from work together.  The only time we were really apart was the 8 hours a day we were each in our respective work spaces (in different buildings). Then BabyGirl came along & I left the work force (Kork, that sounds much better, doesn't it?).  We spent every day together until it was time for him to go to work- again- hours & hours.  But lately things have changed.

Days I work I leave home anywhere from 5:10 am to 6:25 am.  I get home anywhere from 1:30 pm to 2:30 pm.  Some days we have to meet on the high way to swap Bitsy from his van to mine.  Those days are tough.  I might talk to him for 5 minutes before I leave the house and again for 5-10 minutes when we meet up.

This week I've had to work the past 2 days & haven't been home until after he's long gone....and it bothers me.

Anyone who knows us knows that we are not clingy.  I do not pine over Husband when I'm in TN and he's at home.  We're not lovey-dovey by any stretch.  But we do spend the vast majority of our time together. And now that has to change.

The realization has set in that next year things are going to be very different.  More different that I thought when we began discussing my working outside the home.  But we're going to make this work.  It's going to take a decided effort, but it's going to work just the same.

While I've been gone this week, Husband and Bitsy put in a new flower bed for me for Mother's Day.  I guess being gone means coming home to surprises.  That part is fine by me.